Post by pigskin on Apr 16, 2007 18:12:27 GMT -5
Though the events of today hit's the hearts of everyone - it it strikes mine like Vlad Dracula's curl tactics. As many of you all know, i was a memeber, classmate and football player at Tech, alot of the people killed were either friends, or i knew 'em. Forgive me if i write a typo, or mispell something not normally mispelled, but i write this with a heavy heart, and a shattered soul.
I sit now, awaiting a phone call, text or message from either the family or my friend himself; raised together in the same hood, cut from the same cloth. He's much like a brother and many senses, in all actuallilty i don't even know why im writing this... i live in Vancouver WA, 400k miles from atlanta GA, where "all" my family is, i live here by myself, with no family - thus i haven't anyone to vent too, so i suppose "you" the people i play with, play agasint, will be my venting ears.
Hrm, Shootings like this should be nothing new to me, i've lost my youngest brother last year to a gang shooting, my cusin two months before that to gang shooting - friends in high school, i have seen drop quicker then flies on a wall, i myself have been shot three times, tho i suppose someone thinks it funny to keep me breathing. I don't know what our world is coming too, i don't know where it is going, and i certainly don't know what the hell our world leaders are doing and thinking. If there was a product in the world, i could choose to sell, it would be murder, death... why? cause it is never in a shortage, never lingering... always there. Prehaps not in your face.. but maybe a block away.. a hour later... but its there. My mother, a mother of five boy's and four gurls.. is being shipped out to iraq in another month for the second time - shes scared out her mind, but the only thing that keeps her going is that she'll beable to keep food on the table for her family......WHY!? To fight a war half this country doesn't even belive in... to fight one mans war... for his own selfish greed? Or.. prehaps its our countries leaders greed? Should as hell ain't mine... or the other "millions of U.S. Citens's who don't belive in the war.
Now this...four of my friends are told to be dead, six more in the hospitle, they dun know if they going to make it or not. I understand that life is unfair, i understand that it can be cruel, MORE then anybody. It's becoming "work" trying to maintain my peace... I go to school, here now, at lewis and clark, and clark. I maintain a 3.5 G.P.A., i want to be a criminal def lawyer so my mother can get outta the dam army - but with all that happens.. akll thats happening.. and i am all alone "here" How the I like am i suppost to keep a clear head? I couldn't go to school today after hearing that shit, im sure my grade will be effected.
Hrm....now im glabbing...i just ask that we pray...not only for ther people whom died, and the families whom have to cope; but pray for our "world" in a whole... hope that it gets better... or "war" "murder" and death will prehaps be the only thing we see....
I don't want that..
I sit now, awaiting a phone call, text or message from either the family or my friend himself; raised together in the same hood, cut from the same cloth. He's much like a brother and many senses, in all actuallilty i don't even know why im writing this... i live in Vancouver WA, 400k miles from atlanta GA, where "all" my family is, i live here by myself, with no family - thus i haven't anyone to vent too, so i suppose "you" the people i play with, play agasint, will be my venting ears.
Hrm, Shootings like this should be nothing new to me, i've lost my youngest brother last year to a gang shooting, my cusin two months before that to gang shooting - friends in high school, i have seen drop quicker then flies on a wall, i myself have been shot three times, tho i suppose someone thinks it funny to keep me breathing. I don't know what our world is coming too, i don't know where it is going, and i certainly don't know what the hell our world leaders are doing and thinking. If there was a product in the world, i could choose to sell, it would be murder, death... why? cause it is never in a shortage, never lingering... always there. Prehaps not in your face.. but maybe a block away.. a hour later... but its there. My mother, a mother of five boy's and four gurls.. is being shipped out to iraq in another month for the second time - shes scared out her mind, but the only thing that keeps her going is that she'll beable to keep food on the table for her family......WHY!? To fight a war half this country doesn't even belive in... to fight one mans war... for his own selfish greed? Or.. prehaps its our countries leaders greed? Should as hell ain't mine... or the other "millions of U.S. Citens's who don't belive in the war.
Now this...four of my friends are told to be dead, six more in the hospitle, they dun know if they going to make it or not. I understand that life is unfair, i understand that it can be cruel, MORE then anybody. It's becoming "work" trying to maintain my peace... I go to school, here now, at lewis and clark, and clark. I maintain a 3.5 G.P.A., i want to be a criminal def lawyer so my mother can get outta the dam army - but with all that happens.. akll thats happening.. and i am all alone "here" How the I like am i suppost to keep a clear head? I couldn't go to school today after hearing that shit, im sure my grade will be effected.
Hrm....now im glabbing...i just ask that we pray...not only for ther people whom died, and the families whom have to cope; but pray for our "world" in a whole... hope that it gets better... or "war" "murder" and death will prehaps be the only thing we see....
I don't want that..